Having a voice

Far too often, victims of abuse feel like they don't have a voice. They keep quiet about the pain they are in. They suffer alone. I know I did. There are times where I fall back into that pattern.

You do have a voice. I have a voice.

I am careful not to name my abusers, but I will not be silent about what they did to me. No longer will I hide in shame because of THEIR actions. Yes, I may have made some poor decisions, but that did not give them permission.

Mending Hearts is about giving back that voice. It doesn't matter what type of situation you have been in. If you are feeling lost, alone, hurt - you are home. You no longer have to go through it alone.

You can be a new creation

** all scripture is quoted from BibleGateway.com

The Bible is filled with hundreds of stories of men who took a leap of faith for God. I love those stories - they're classics. Abraham, Issac, Moses, Noah.

All too often, I struggle to connect. Sure, I can identify with their weaknesses, but they're still men. Think of the women of the Bible. Ruth, Esther, Mary. They were ordinary women who did extraordinary things out of faith. But how do you identify with the woman who would one day birth our Savior?

Yet there are women in the Bible who people discounted. Women who society tossed to the side. Women who were insignificant - but not to God.

Rahab, the Samaritan woman at the well and the woman caught in adultery. These ladies were working girls; prostitutes. In those days, they would be stone for the life. One was about to be stoned when Jesus stepped in. However, God used these women in an incredible way. Rahab, a mere prostitute, is mentioned in the lineage of Jesus.

I don't know what drove these women to freely give away their bodies, but I can identify. I may not have been paid, but I did freely give away what wasn't mine to give.

God saved those women. Not because they were perfect - no. They were tainted according to society's standards. Used and abused. But He saved them because He loved them. Just like He loves you. He promises to make you a new creation in Him. Your past doesn't matter. It is long forgotten. he is healing those wounds. He will use YOU to further His kingdom. YOU are a vital part of His story.

Many blessings dear one,

Allison

Why Mending Hearts?

Psalm 147:3
He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds

The Lord has blessed me with a whisper. An opportunity to use my part of His story to heal lives.

For many years, my painful past defined who I was. I was a victim. A victim of sexual assault, sexual abuse, emotional abuse and self-hate.

Today, I am a SURVIVOR!! Clinging to the promise of Psalm 147:3. I have been able to turn the corner. Through strength and love from God, my family and friends, I am able to step away from the mistakes of my past and move forward knowing that I am worthy of love.

This is not about me. Not about sympathy. This is about the love of a Heavenly Father that knows no bounds and how He can mend broken hearts.

Asked to speak

After reconnecting with an old friend and sharing my story, I have been asked to speak at a woman's retreat. This is something I've been wanting to do for quite some time. I can't believe God is giving me this opportunity.

I need to think & pray before I commit. Yet an amazing chance to spread the word of this ministry.

In His Name,
Allison

Mending MY Broken Heart

I 'met' Jesus when I was about 11 or 12. Dad was a new Christian and bringing the family to church. Everyone was always excited at church and the tears that flowed when someone received Christ - well, I wanted that.

Yet, there was still a hole in my heart. I don't think I FULLY understood why it was there and how to fill it.

My teenage years were rough. I was very active in church & youth group. I even made my own purity pledge, yet I still craved the love of a man - mainly my earthly father.

I looked everywhere for that love & acceptance, only to miss it. After being shunned by my church family, I grew angry with God. How could He let this happen to me? If I couldn't rely on my church family, who COULD I rely on? All the while, God was whispering to me however I was TOO angry to hear Him.

Eventually, my self-respect went out the window. I let men treat me like garbage because I believed that I was garbage. My earthly father didn't love me, my church family didn't want me... obviously my Heavenly Father gave up on me.

I turned towards sex & alcohol to numb the pain. Let me tell you - they were only temporary fixes. The pain always came back worse than before. My mind was open for the Enemy.

I am afflicted with depression. There is some debate as to whether depression is a medical condition or a spiritual condition. I am of the mindset that it IS a medical condition HOWEVER Satan can and will use it to defeat you spiritually. And dear one, HE WILL!

God's whispers began getting a little louder in 1993 when He answered a simple prayer - He reunited me with the man who would eventually become my husband. That doesn't mean that healing was immediate. I had hardened my heart to God - but slowly He was softening it.

Over the years, He continued to pursue me. He blessed me with a godly man, 2 beautiful children, a home; He has reunited & repaired family relationships. He still pursues me - He pursues you too.

There are still days where the Enemy tries to find a foothold. Most days he's unsuccessful. God has taken those 'tragedies' of my life and brought good out of them. He took my broken heart & bound it back together so that I can love Him and love myself.

Welcome

Praise God!!!

This site has been a long time coming. Something I have been felt lead to create for quite a while, yet the timing wasn't right.

NOW is the time!!

This ministry is being birthed out of my life experiences; that I may use what I've been through to speak to others.

Bear with me as I begin this journey....

Mending hearts for Christ,
~*~ Allison ~*~